Better days

Jar of hearts

A quote

11-11-11 / 11:11:11

There is this moment that everything seems to be aligned. Today, that moment came, but it was gone. Time passes really fast, and i feel that i haven't do much. In many ways, i'm left behind. If this is a race, i must be disqualified already. Hopefully i still have the chance to finish this (life) race, no matter what the position will be.

A dream in a dream

Been feeling odd lately, which resulted in a weird dream too, which happened last night. It was a dream within a dream. The feeling was like that i was relieved that i had waken from a dream, only to find out later that it was still a dream. And i get confused (even during the dream).

This has happened many times before too, but this time it was so obvious that after i finally wake up to the real "reality", i could still memorize the dreams very clear. It was kind of a nightmare, perhaps the reflection of my negative thoughts which resulted in a scary dream. The first dream was about me trying to avoid traffic polices, and found out that my name was blacklisted. Suddenly i was awake (which actually not), and i felt very relieved that it was a dream..., a while later i saw through my window, view of smokes everywhere. The smokes burst up very high, which look like pillars of smoke everywhere. There are other things too happened... I saw houses were like damaged, and without roofs. It looks like an after war scene, and at the same time i felt the temperature was getting hot (I later realize this might be because the "real" room temp was quite high and i was somehow dehydrated). Back in the dream, i thought this scene must be something like the end of the world, it felt so scary, and real. Then i awake. Thank God for real.

Fading light

Lyrics from the song:
There is a candle in every soul
Some brightly burning, some dark and cold
There is a Spirit who brings a fire
Ignites a candle and makes His home

I like the slow and calming melody in this song.  Been thinking, i am like this dark and cold candle.  So dark that i didn't even notice there is a candle.  Was chatting with a college friend today, who works in a refuge camp, and i am thinking that he is like the bright candle and lighting this world.  Unlike me, who works for financial gain, pretty much without a meaning.