The Cliff

When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go.  Only one of two things will happen: either He'll catch you when you fall, or He'll teach you how to fly!

I find a good quote.  Have read this long time ago, but always forget the exact words in the quote.  

Figure of Speech

I was chatting with a friend, and i think we were using lots of 'Majas', a figurative terms of speech, which has many styles, commonly used formally in Indonesia.  

Throughout our chat that was filled with this nostalgic theory of Indonesian language, i was pretty strucked by the 'majas' my friend pointed out, "Perjalanan hidup manusia seperti sungai yang mengalir menyusuri tebing-tebing, yang kadang-kadang sulit ditebak kedalamannya, yang rela menerima segala sampah, dan yang pada akhirnya berhenti ketika bertemu dengan laut", which in short tell about one's life journey like a flowing river that are filled with so many troubles, uncertainties and difficulties, which at the end will finally end in the sea.  The 'sea' is kind of the destination that everyone is going to.  

I think if i have to sum up my journey, it has been a wild ride, with all the ups and downs. At times i think i've been trapped for too long in my comfort zone, which subsconciously i refuse to let go. A quote to describe this could be something like 'a bird that forgot how to fly'.
In retrospect with the reason i wrote this blog, i think i have lost further, and could not figure out how and where this journey is gonna lead me into.  

Rio

After the opening, I got the chance to watch the Olympic closing on TV.  It was very inspiring.  Many great songs with great performance.  The fireworks are also wonderful.  The coming Olympic will be held in Rio De Janeiro, Brazil.  I have seen in the Amazing Race TV show the view of Rio before.  Few days ago I searched the web for pictures of Rio. It was amazing.

Challenges

2012 is one of the hardest time that I have to go through.  All of my life experiences before this can't help me to cope with what is going through this time.  I have been angry for so many times with so many things. I think the biggest problem lies within me, and yet I felt that I can't get out from it.  I felt that life journey is getting tougher now. And more challenges appear.  

Olympic moments

I've watched the olympic opening last week in TV, and it was a really great opening.  I see how energetic and excited the people there.

The torch final moment before ignition and the fireworks were really great.  I think such event is like some of those 'oomph' moment in life for many people.

The big rocks

http://www.appleseeds.org/Big-Rocks_Covey.htm

I once read a story about the big rocks inside a jar.  It said the most important things in our life should be in first, and the rest could follow.  It was about priorities.  One of those most important things are family.  I lost my mother earlier this year, and this week my brother had to go to Taiwan (could be for good) to continue his study.  I notice that this "jar of my life" can never be the same again.

Apart from that, many things happened this year.  2012 is one of the most difficult times that I had ever gone through. It surprised me at times that I could go through all that happened this year.

Miracle of the Sun

The Miracle of the Sun (Portuguese: O Milagre do Sol) was an event on 13 October 1917 in which 30,000 to 100,000 people, who were gathered near Fátima, Portugal, claimed to have witnessed extraordinary solar activity.


The event was attributed by believers to Our Lady of Fátima, a reported apparition of the Blessed Virgin Mary to the children who had made predictions of the event on 13 July 1917, 19 August, and 13 September. The children stated that the Lady had promised them that she would on 13 October reveal her identity to them and provide a miracle "so that all may believe."


According to these reports, the event lasted approximately ten minutes. The three children also reported seeing a panorama of visions, including those of Jesus, the Blessed Virgin Mary, and of Saint Joseph blessing the people.

In addition to the Miracle of the Sun, the seers at Fatima indicated that the lady prophesied a great sign in the night sky which would precede a second Great War. An aurora borealis which appeared in 1938 all over the northern hemisphere, including in places as far south as North Africa, Bermuda, and California and was the widest occurrence of the aurora since 1709 was interpreted as the great light the lady predicted. Lucia, the sole surviving seer at the time, indicated that it was the sign foretold and so apprised her superior and the bishop in letters the following day. Just over a month later, Adolf Hitler seized Austria, and eight months later Nazi Germanyinvaded Czechoslovakia. These have been interpreted as the start of the Great War as predicted by the lady.


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Miracle_of_the_Sun

This will pass..

If I can endure for this minute

Whatever is happening to me,

No matter how heavy my heart is

Or how dark the moment may be

If I can remain calm and quiet

With all the world crashing about me,

Secure in the knowledge God loves me

When everyone else seems to doubt me

If I can but keep on believing

What I know in my heart to be true,

That darkness will fade with the morning

And that this will pass away, too

Then nothing in life can defeat me

For as long as this knowledge remains

I can suffer whatever is happening

For I know God will break all of the chains

That are binding me tight in the darkness

And trying to fill me with fear

For there is no night without dawning

And I know that my morning is near.

-Helen Steiner Rice

Believe..

Finding Christmas..

Almost lover

Numbed

Was told once that my life is pretty much like the one showed in this clip, except that I haven't got the chance to meet someone like in the clip. Yet. There were times that I felt I have met and knew the "right" one, but it didn't last.

To think again, I did have quite the same feeling showed in the clip, just it wasn't entirely the same situation. Different, but with the same "oomph" factor.

My December

Stand a little taller

Better days

Jar of hearts

A quote

11-11-11 / 11:11:11

There is this moment that everything seems to be aligned. Today, that moment came, but it was gone. Time passes really fast, and i feel that i haven't do much. In many ways, i'm left behind. If this is a race, i must be disqualified already. Hopefully i still have the chance to finish this (life) race, no matter what the position will be.

A dream in a dream

Been feeling odd lately, which resulted in a weird dream too, which happened last night. It was a dream within a dream. The feeling was like that i was relieved that i had waken from a dream, only to find out later that it was still a dream. And i get confused (even during the dream).

This has happened many times before too, but this time it was so obvious that after i finally wake up to the real "reality", i could still memorize the dreams very clear. It was kind of a nightmare, perhaps the reflection of my negative thoughts which resulted in a scary dream. The first dream was about me trying to avoid traffic polices, and found out that my name was blacklisted. Suddenly i was awake (which actually not), and i felt very relieved that it was a dream..., a while later i saw through my window, view of smokes everywhere. The smokes burst up very high, which look like pillars of smoke everywhere. There are other things too happened... I saw houses were like damaged, and without roofs. It looks like an after war scene, and at the same time i felt the temperature was getting hot (I later realize this might be because the "real" room temp was quite high and i was somehow dehydrated). Back in the dream, i thought this scene must be something like the end of the world, it felt so scary, and real. Then i awake. Thank God for real.

Fading light

Lyrics from the song:
There is a candle in every soul
Some brightly burning, some dark and cold
There is a Spirit who brings a fire
Ignites a candle and makes His home

I like the slow and calming melody in this song.  Been thinking, i am like this dark and cold candle.  So dark that i didn't even notice there is a candle.  Was chatting with a college friend today, who works in a refuge camp, and i am thinking that he is like the bright candle and lighting this world.  Unlike me, who works for financial gain, pretty much without a meaning.