Being late

I've planned to create this montages for some time. It was something that i promised to do for months. This habit of delaying took me for months to finally really do it. Even when the "doing" is actually not time consuming at all.

I've always think that there have to be "right" moment while doing something, but i guess i will never know when is really the "right" time. Actually, now, it's kinda "wrong" time. But a promise is still a promise (even when it's just too late).

Will update for more detailed subs on each images if u wanted to. Pls let me know.

Bridge to nowhere

Great picture. It's a real bridge on the Atlantic Road in Norway. In some ways, its like the road that i am taking now. The things on "to nowhere" kinda fits in well.

stay.?

falling apart

in and out of love

feeling alone

...

Ordinary miracle

October

the riddle

I think life itself is a riddle. Am looking for someone to solve it. Or at least to find more clues.

nuff said

stop & stare

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Fighting on Monday

Start today with a bad situation..
Invite some angers to my face.

Not in my dream and not in yours too
In reality open my eyes..

Choose a right way to complete this
Change faces become smiley..

Close today with a good situation..
cheers some people to the sky.

Not in my dream and not in yours too
In reality open my eyes..

Good fighting is the coolest thing
Accept Monday become great Monday...



Lils

should i go

It's been quite some time that i do not write. Lots of things have happened this year (at least for me, it's a lot). I don't know if i have succeeded or fail, in this life. I think i've made big mistakes. A lot. I need more than just a time to pause. I need to rearrange everything back from square again. It's the end of another episode. I am too afraid to start a new chapter. It will never be new anyway.

this don't even feel like falling..

the yin & yang of current weather

wanted to write about this yesterday, but can't get the right time (read: too lazy). yesterday morning, as i went out, it was kinda weird. the sun is really hot & bright. (no, not too late than usual too :D

Then, when i was on my way to work. as i drove,.. say it in this "different" direction, i saw scary views. the sky was really dark. it was an equal split, half dark, half really bright. and all the cars/ motors driving on my way (em, on their way) was all wet. looks really wet. i am the only dry vehicles in that road. (in that side of road). i don't think i should be proud writing this.

not far from there, after i get in the right direction, it started to rain. very heavy rain. guess weather nowadays are really unpredictable.

and that global warming & 2012 prediction thing is getting real now. nature around the world keep showing us many weird incidents now. it's scary. btw, it suddenly rains outside now. and the sun still shines.

note: picture above is not what i saw yesterday. hope could see something like that. (the scenery, not the storm).

Ryan Farish- Full Sail

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4FE2jGMjwwk


Great piece of instrumental song. Great pictures too. I think this song seems suitable to be featured in promotional tourism videos. It sounds great to describe beautiful landscapes in various places in this world.



I came across a great place in Bali, while i browse someone's blog. It's the hanging garden resort in Ubud. They have the "infinity pool", looks really great. It's a two-storey pools, overlooking a huge forest gorge. I've never seen this place before, both in real or in pictures. One of a place worth visiting.

I will be

better in time

it's one of these days when i need to pause and think. And yes, i've think & pause for too long.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a9XAmmoL7AM

vuvuzela & jabalani

As far as i know, this video/music was not published in the mainstream media. Many commented on youtube that this should be the official theme song.

I've noticed for quite some time that African language are pretty much the same with the Malays, esp in the usage of vocals. The words are easy to pronounce, clear, and sounds good. Like this one that i like, "Hakuna Matata". Have to practice it.

a star

Each of us represents a star in Heaven. Sometimes we shine with the rest, sometimes we twinkle alone and sometimes, when we least expect it, we make someone else's dreams come true.

http://www.holliesquotes.com/lovehappy/page2.html

Read the quote from someone's facebook update. Like the quote. It's like those "out of the blue" moments. That feeling of hope. The feeling that after all this while, there are still hope. I dont know. and I will never know too. I wish i know. I can only imagine. *insert one song from mercy me

between mind and heart

this is one of the songs that i used in a documentary once. kinda nostalgic to listen to this song again. btw, hopefully it's not mellow, it's a new age song.

"not so mellow" song

I notice that the songs published in this blog are mostly (or even all) mellow. So, i want to publish this song. It has fast beats & tempo. It's full of energy. It doesn't sound mellow. Until you begin to listen to the lyric.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yBl3yrXqrUE

The Footprints

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwOQr7ld8e8

Signs

SIGNS by Patrick Hughes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uy0HNWto0UY

12 minutes of short film. Great sound background too. A bit "too good to be true" love story. Kinda wish have it in real life though. Nuff said. Just look for the signs. No pun intended.

Slow

Spiritualized - Lay It Down

If you got dreams in your heart
Why don't you share them with me?
And if dreams don't come true
I'll make sure that your nightmares
Are through

If you got pain in your heart
Why don't you share it with me?
And we'll just wait and see
If it's half of what it used to be

And lay it down slow
Lay it down free
Lay it down easy
But lay it on me

If you've got love in your heart
Why don't you keep it with mine?
I can't promise a miracle
But I'll always be trying

And lay it down slow
Lay it down free
Lay it down easy
But lay it on me

Lay it down easy
Lay it on me

Lay it down easy
But lay it on me


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZkcbYG3kTs

Could make someone fall asleep, but to me, great song with great lyric. Know this song from 'Prison Break' serial, one of the final episodes. I think this song do has its own spell, very slow but full of emotions. or something like that.

Give me reason why I let you down

Astair your glare is killing me
Astair in skies of blue
The signs you wear are making me
So confused

But the mountains and the trees
Are they just what you need
Or are they less than what
You'd expect to see

And if you're leaving well come
Give me reason why I let you down
Before you turn around now now
Before you turn around

Astair you're there and I'm still here
I swear I'm so confused
The signs you wear are making me
Feel like I'm the one to lose

But the canyons and the seas
Are they just what you need
Or are they less than what
You'd expect to see

And if you're leaving well come
Give me reason why I let you down
Before you turn around now, now

Before you turn around

But the mountains and the trees
Are they what you perceive
Or are they less than what
You'd expect to see

And if you're leaving well come
Give me reason why I let you down
Before you turn around now, now
Before you turn around

Matt Costa-Astair
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FHJyJ3usHY



Gotta hear this. It's one of a song that i heard first from tv, or somewhere else. The song sounds easy & calming. Great melody too. And after i search the song's lyric recently, i just knew, this is the right song in the right time. Actually, there is this other song, will post it in different post.

This post is dedicated to someone. I hope this message do 'arrive'. Notice the apostrophe. If you are reading this, you will know it's for you.

Mistakes

So, so you made a lot of mistakes
Walked down the road a little sideways
Cracked a brick when you hit the wall
Yeah, you've had a pocket full of regrets
Pull you down faster than a sunset
Hey, it happens to us all

When the cold hard rain just won't quit
And you can't see your way out of it

You find your faith has been lost and shaken
You take back what's been taken
Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible
Keep on believing, don't give in
It'll come and make you whole again
It always will, it always does
Love is unstoppable

Love, it can weather any storm
Bring you back to being born again
oh, it's a helping hand when you need it most
A lighthouse shinning on the coast
That never goes dim

When your heart is full of doubt
And you think that there's no way out

You find your faith has been lost and shaken
You take back what's been taken
Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible
Keep on believing, don't give in
It'll come and make you whole again
It always will, it always does
Love is unstoppable

Like a river keeps on rolling
Like the north wind blowing
Don't it feel good knowing

You find your faith has been lost and shaken
You take back what's been taken
Get on your knees and dig down deep
You can do what you think is impossible
Keep on believing, don't give in
It'll come and make you whole again
It always will, it always does
Love is unstoppable

Love is unstoppable
So you made a lot of mistakes
Walked down the road a little sideways
Love, love is unstoppable

Lyrics from Rascal Flatts - Unstoppable

Someone shared to me this song recently. It has a great lyric, and i just noticed it today. Before this, i was just looking to the video & lyric at a glance. (I do have a problem in concentration). And today, after i "rewatch" the video again, i just know that the lyric is very inspiring.

Not just the lyric, the video itself is really great. It was filled with great panoramic views.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZbTy5NoCck

I am looking forward to make myself whole again. After all these years. It will be hard. But it's worth trying.

positive post

I just notice that entries in my blogs are gloomy and tended to be depressive. It's like "i m a victim" kinda posts.

In this review, i think that my state of mind needs to be reprogrammed to see things from many different angles too.

Long enough that i lost my purpose, the purpose of living, and sense of direction.

In the end, at times when i have lost everything that i hold dear, i hope that i will always remember one thing, that the path & journey that i took, is indeed worth taking.

why "lost nightingale"..

Nightingale is a type of songbird, which supposedly active at night. So it's kinda same with my lifestyle :p

Nightingale is also a migratory bird, which supposedly migrate in certain season/ time. And this is what i'm thinking of doing too. (though i don't have wings). But even if i have, i might still thinking too most of the time. I think the concept of doraemon's door will works better here. *rattle continues.

Lost is a term that describe my conditions most of the time. or all time. i think. I m still trying to find the "right" path or at least correct it to a "righter" one. ok, i m lost with words now.

the Footprints

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,

“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”

The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.”

---

Mary Stevenson, 1936

This is one poem that struck me once years ago. It just came on the right time & place then. And it will always left a mark. Like the footprints, some memories will always be printed in my mind. And i wish that i could erase some of the memories, or even all, and restart the whole thing. This poem will always be one of the best poem i've known. Owner of the pict. attached http://liltze.blogspot.com/

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
when he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst, that
You Must Not Quit.

- C. W. Longenecker

I've quit too many times. Just like in a game, when i feel like losing, i'll quit or restart. In life, i can't do it. I got to live with it. And then, i will rely on the thing that they say, that time heal all wounds.

The edge

"When you walk to the edge of all the light you have
and take that first step into the darkness of the unknown,
you must believe that one of two things will happen:
There will be something solid for you to stand upon,
or, you will be taught how to fly" ~ Patrick Overton

Just got to search this quote, well-written, with an end that sums up everything. I wish i could have such big faith. In this past few weeks, i faced many situations which are like wake-up calls. Notice the "s". It's overwhelming. Never before in my life, i was tempted to make a move. And yet, there is this kind of "clouds of doubt" hanging over. (for some reason, my choice of words suddenly improve).

I'm supposed to write 10 resolutions for now. And it's so difficult to start. It will be another shame if i can't complete the task. And i have strong feeling, that this is gonna be difficult. Will stop writing now, to stay focus becomes difficult these days.

A (really) short poem

Been thinking (yes, only think as always) of writing new posts in these few weeks, but just haven't get started for so many reasons (read:lazy).

This sudden urge to blog came because of a short verse (cant really say it's a poem) i write just now. I admit i am not a good writer, it took so long just to come out with these (and it's not good enough too) :

Sweet dream,
ignore my message,
find the passage,
in your deepest dream,

kinda want to save these words, coz i'll forget it very soon :D

Btw, this is the real good one:

Good night, sleep tight,
Don't let the bedbugs bite,
Wake up bright
In the morning light
To do what's right
With all your might

(found on google)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4xS59yr1-t0&feature=related